It is difficult to create a coherent
narrative to explain the progression of the work that I have
undertaken. There are a number of ideas that have been explored
concurrently, concerning music, memory, nostalgia and sound
aesthetics.
The early performance pieces in the home began as a musical
experiment to subvert notions of home entertainment and the
hi-fi system. The cctv footage and digital videos of those
give a glimpse onto an absurd act in a sitting room. The nature
of the machines themselves and their context led to ideas
of including personal objects and memories. The setting of
the objects in the home seemed to be the natural environment
for them, even on mass they somehow did not seem that out
of place. On moving them to the studio in college I was worried
that some essential element, in the case of an absurdist performance,
had been lost. The armchair, rug and photo were placed in
the studio space as an attempt to resolve this and as an indication
of the machines relationship to the home environment. The
armchair is my own and is something that has has been there
throughout my life, it was bought in the early seventies and
holds particular memories of my early years. The aesthetic
qualities of sound with vinyl based music, the unique hiss
and crackle of old '78s, the immediate evocation of period
by them and the music itself allied to the discarded machines
increased my awareness of how these objects create a sense
of nostalgia and sentimentality, some more than others.
I began writing about particular experiences
of music, what music I could remember from childhood where
it was heard and who with. There is no linearity to the memories,
they jump from time to time one memory somehow triggering
another seemingly unrelated one. There are things I wrote
that on reading back I could not in all honesty confirm to
be true. This sense of uncertainty and the fallibility of
memory led to ideas of creating entirely new memories, a false
history. I began cutting up the original text and rearranging
it in such a way that it is coherent and believable, containing
the same words but altogether different. There are several
versions of this, which I then re wrote it to create further
confusion as to which might be the real one.